Monday Free Write

Happy Monday all!

I think this is going to be a tough one to write, but I think its something that I need to write about. I consider myself to be very lucky. I have a good job, a great husband and two great boys. Sure the blog isn't exactly as successful as I would like it to be, but overall I live a really great life.

So what's the problem then?

I think I've talked this before, but sometimes I suffer from depression. I'm thankful its very mild and sometimes I don't realize I'm suffering from it. But then there are times, like right now, that I know I'm in the middle of a depression and there's nothing I can do to stop it. And no matter what I try to do there is this feeling of numbness is in the back of my mind. It definitely sucks and I often try to keep myself busy so I don't feel it as much. (It doesn't actually work all that well, but it definitely works as a quick fix).

And right now it seems to be a high point. I currently finished all my projects I saved for my "Wisdom Teeth Removal Vacation". I have another set of projects I know I pick back up again, but I just can't find the energy or the want to start working on them again. it absolutely sucks! (And I'm honestly happy it isn't worse than it actually is)

I just wish I knew a better way of dealing with it, but really most times it seems as quickly as it arrives, it disappears again. But what I do know that its perfectly normal and I shouldn't be ashamed that it does happen.

#Freewrite